August 28, 2012

Wish list

The boys get to go back to school shopping.  Shouldn't mom?  My back to school list.

Cat Scratch Fever

I have mentioned before that my work is like wild kingdom.  We recently added 9 kittens to the mix.  On Friday, one of the kittens thought my finger was food and took a bite out of it.  I didn't really think much of it until I was driving home and realizing that these kittens are wild and are not vaccinated.  I got home and soaked the bite with alcohol and hydrogen peroxide.  I washed it several times with soap and water and figured that would do the trick. 

Here's the thing, I haven't been feeling well since Sunday.  Thanks to the internet I am sure I have cat scratch fever!  I don't have any of the actual symptoms but I don't worry about small details like that!  So I guess that's that.  Cats 1, Janiesa 0.

August 26, 2012


Last week was Rebecca's birthday.  Like all the ones before, I spent it without her.  In May, she decided she didn't want to talk to anymore.  I don't know why, she wouldn't say.  I was hoping she would change her mind but it doesn't look like that is likely to happen.  I spent the last 20 years wondering if she would hate me and now I know the answer to that question.  Knowledge isn't always power.  Sometimes knowledge is sadness.

August 20, 2012

heart issue

Brian is teaching a series about the 10 Commandments.  One of the commandments he talked about today brings up a heart issue for me.  It is the commandment of keeping the Sabbath Day holy.

Being the pastor's wife I am at church every week.  I don't have to be.  There is nothing in Brian's contract that says I have to be there every week.  I choose to be there.  I believe in the Acts 2 model of church because I have seen it work. Acts 2:42-47 says this:
 "42 And they devoted themselves to the apostles' teaching and the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers. 43 And awe came upon every soul, and many wonders and signs were being done through the apostles. 44 And all who believed were together and had all things in common. 45 And they were selling their possessions and belongings and distributing the proceeds to all, as any had need. 46 And day by day, attending the temple together and breaking bread in their homes, they received their food with glad and generous hearts, 47 praising God and having favor with all the people. And the Lord added to their number day by day those who were being saved."  
I believe that we are instructed to come together and listen to God's Word and worship Him. Currently, we call that "church."   I believe we should be getting together in community.  Rock Harbor calls that "Community Group."  

Here is the heart issue I struggle with, I have heard every excuse in the book on why people miss church and my heart has anger towards them.  I have seen the positive effect church has had on families and it upsets me that it is such a low priority on peoples' schedule.  If the early church was doing what God had asked of them and as a result of obedience He added daily to their number those who were being saved, how many people, in our current day culture, have missed an opportunity to be saved because the Christians had more important things to do? That should sadden us.  Here are  three heart issues I struggle with the most.

1. I was too tired.  Do you think ministry leaders don't get tired?  Do you think we don't want to sleep in?  Our weekends are just as packed as everyone else's.  Our weekdays are no different.  There is more to do than there are number of hours.   During the school year, Saturday is really the only full day Brian gets to spend with the kids.  We do things as a family on that day.  That means that Brian stays up late to review his message.  Sometimes we don't make it to bed before midnight.  Then we get up at 6am to prepare for the morning.  I'm tired, but the experience I get at church is far more valuable than a couple more hours of sleep.  Would you not show up for work because you were tired?  No! You would gulp down some coffee or an energy drink and man up and get going. Work is too important to miss.  How much more important is your spiritual health?

2. My kids had a sporting game we had to be at.   Why?  Why do you HAVE to be there?  The answer, because the coach won't let little Timmy play in the next game if he doesn't show up.  And the problem with that is...?  Odds are that little Timmy will not be playing this sport as a profession so how will missing games affect his life as a whole?  Why is obedience and worship of your Creator less important than a sport He gave your child the ability to play?  When your coach or fellow parents hear that you're a Christian but you place a game above church how great will your influence actually be on them.  We are supposed to go into the world and influence it not let it influence us.  In my opinion, if the Christians would take a stand against games being played on Sunday, games might be pushed back to the afternoon.  Why are we so afraid to take that stand?  Is it because we don't want our children to have to pay the consequences for being a Christian?  Shouldn't we be training our children how to handle those consequences instead of trying to avoid being singled out because of Christ?  Here is what it says in Matthew 5.
 11 “Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. 12 Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

 "But church will always be there, this sports opportunity won't."  We as parents have tremendous influence over our children.  They watch us from the beginning of life and copy how we act and how we speak.  This is how they learn to do everything, by watching us, by what we teach them.  We want to give them opportunities to play sports, instruments, and many other activities and there is nothing wrong with that.  However, when we allow activities to take the place of church you have taught and modeled to them that other things are more important than obedience and serving their God.  Many times it is this very parent that sits in their pastor's office and wonders why their child has fallen away from God and doesn't attend any church.  We have just taught them that if there is nothing else going on in their life and you're not too tired then maybe you should go to church.  Many times I have to walk away from these conversations because my heart has anger in it.  If we want our kids to succeed spiritually why are we setting them up to fail?

3. We wanted to spend time as a family.  What better way to spend time as a family than worshipping our Father together?  Why can't you have breakfast, spend an hour and a half at church, THEN go to the park, or the movie, or lounge on the couch?  How can "family time" not have room for the Creator of our family?  Through 17 years of ministry I have seen that the family that worships together is a closer, happier family regardless of things or circumstances.

God is working on my heart issue.  I find myself too quick to judgement and because of judgement I become resentful of people.  It is easy to do when the majority of your life is ministry.  I am thankful for a forgiving God and for forgiving people.

August 19, 2012


While Brian's parents were in town, Brian and I took the opportunity to take a mini vacation without the kids.  Ok, so it wasn't a mini vacation, it was just one night, but it was without the kids.  We went out to Lincoln City, which is out on the coast.  The beach is a meaningful place for the both of us separately and together.  It is a place we go to relax and just enjoy the beauty of God's creation.  I can't begin to capture its beauty but I try!

August 18, 2012

take a hike!

Yesterday, we took a family hike on one of the coastal mountains.  I don't remember the name of it but it is the highest mountain in the Oregon coastal range.  The "trail" we took was located between Cannon Beach and Manzanita. 

We get there and decide to take an easy warm up hike.  We walked down to view what is called "The devil's cauldron."  We were able to see the ocean crashing against these massive rock cliffs.

"The devil's cauldron."

The ropes are merely suggestions!


Me and Brian

Parker has a fear of heights.  Brian convinced him to come out for a picture.  He crawled out there.  Hey, whatever it takes!

Me and Tyler

Yes, he is taller than me without my shoes!

 After our short practice hike, we went back to the car and ate lunch.  Then we began.  The temperature back in Sherwood was supposed to be in the 100's.  Where we were it was cool with the ever present marine layer.  The hike we were about to embark on was 5 miles round trip.  You go from sea level to 1800 feet.  It was an ambitious hike for us.  As we climbed, I would stop and take pictures of flowers or scenery we passed.  At least that is what I claimed.  I really just needed to make the burning in my legs lessen before I took my next step!

The marine layer made it look quiet and peaceful.  It also provided nice cool temperatures.

Anthony did a great job leading us to the top!

Tyler was very kind and hung out with me while I took pictures.
 It took us 1.5 hours to climb to the top!  The boys did such a great job.  I am so proud of them.  As we were walking, Brian would continually point to somewhere in the general direction of up and tell us we were almost there.  By the time we were actually almost there I snapped at him to stop saying that.  My legs burned and I was so very thirsty I was tired of hearing we were almost there.  There are no restrooms at the start of the "trail" or anywhere along it.  I kept my water drinking to a minimum so I wouldn't need a bathroom.  The boys, however, got to use nature as their restroom.  Lucky!

We come around a bend and emerge from the woods to a spectacular view!  The marine layer covered the ocean and the coastal towns from our view but it was still awe inspiring.  Tyler said it looked like we were in an airplane.  It was pretty cool!

Things we did when we made it to the top; drink, take pictures, and rest those legs!

Tyler brought R2-Q5 to the top with him.

Anthony was here!

The way down took longer than we thought it would.  Because of all the rock and tree roots you had to be careful where you stepped or you could break an ankle.  Tyler and Anthony had a race down the mountain.  I don't know where they got the energy!

Parker was proud of his accomplishment.  So were we!

It was a great experience.  I had such a fun time with my boys.  Everyone was encouraging each other and helped out when someone needed it.  It was a wonderful day!

Oh happy day!

I am so excited!  I got a new computer today!!  I have been without one for a few weeks now.  My old one was having major issues and then decided to just up and quit.  It's funny how much I depended on my computer.  What in the world did I do growing up?  Write everything by hand, that's what!  I remember having to do reports or a paper in pen using my best handwriting.  I was so excited when they came out with erasable pens!

I'm back, baby!